A happy poem about despair, fear and self doubt

Hey der.

I wrote this poem on one of those lazy, sunny, not a care in the world days
I started writing about how zen and peaceful i was feeling, when I started to question why that's such a contrast to any other day. This poem is the result. Enjoy:

Basking in the glory of
these moments of euphoria
The gentle warmth of sunshine
a breeze against my skin

Is this another story of
the thoughts that I've been storing up
till they start to overtake
the state of peace that I was in

It's in these moments of reflection
that I question the direction
that my life's been taking lately
Am I walking the right path?

Another chance for introspection
reveals a certain predilection
for allowing life to sweep me up
like wind catching the chaff

It's admidst this realization
that I am struck with the sensation
that I create my own emergency
by the way that I react

This isn't self actualization
or some breakthru meditation
It's just coming to accept
that my own head can be a trap

When life's daily aggravations
induce a state of agitation
I'm finding more often than not
the answers sitting in my lap

When I let the past control me
and there's nothing to console me
I am mixing my own poison
drinking deep in my regrets

What I need is greater Knowledge
Of the vastness of your Solace
Hold me fast in your embrace
it's still your touch that heals the best